He would have been 7 and his name was Dyno. Even though I knew none of the other ladies who were there for the same reason I felt like I was not going through it alone. It was hard but I dont regret it. All these fears at once can seem unsurmountable, but when you help her chip away at each, she'll begin to feel more confident. Best of luck xx, I had an abortion when I was too young to provide a child with the life it deserved. I miss my baby every minute of every day. Ive been sobbing and my drive home I kept apologizing outloud for what I had just done. All stories are moderated before being published. It haunts me every day . But I already feel connected and cry so hard every time I think of letting it go. I really care about him, but this all has put a serious strain on our relationship. What if I still had no money, no stable place to live? Its been 44 years since my abortion and I think of her every day. My boyfriend told me to abort mine and I dumped him and made that decision on my own. Wish I could turn back time. I want a burrito. My bf convinced me we werent ready. I have to go through a second one and I dont know what to do. I am now 48 and very much regret it and really dont know how to go on, but somehow we must. I am not waiting for my appointment in about 10 days for now. As a pro-life advocate, I've written and submitted many articles pertaining to abortion to our local newspaper. Not how I thought I would live my life. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation At first, he was kind of a jerk, but eventually conceded to drive two hours back to San Francisco even though I had just sent him away that morning. And, I dont know If I ever would have met my husband of now and not really sure of he would stick around with me having a kid from somebody else but regrets are one of the worst thing that you go though when you make a decision like this. Thats the last burrito hell ever order without any major care in the world. When he parks in front of my school, in front of parents carrying in their babies and small children, I call Planned Parenthood and schedule an abortion for ten days from now. How are you coping? 13 years later I still cry for my baby. Days away from her second abortion, she wrote that getting the abortion is the "right decision for myself, my daughter, and this child." Im giving up the pregnancy to focus on my toddler & also to avoid a life of suffering for the new baby You know in your heart what the right decision is. It would be my second but he has children from a previous marriage. If there is a heart beat I really dont feel I can abort but Im afraid the stress he will give me will cause me to miscarry anyway. A part of me knows there are logistical & rational reasons why we should not have another & honestly those out number the reasons we should but yet I still want my baby. I never felt more disconnected to anyone in my life. It's a first-person account of a single mom who had an abortion - and nearly died - just two years after abortion became legal across the United States. I'll do my very best to be good. My grief has been unbearable the past 5 days since I had the abortion. My periods had always been very irregular and I had taken over the counter tests when it got late but I got negatives the both times so I was certain I wasnt pregnant. And He chose me to teach you about LOVE! I dont want to go through an abortion again. Like you, I was always so excited to become a Mom and I felt a sincere connection as soon as I found out I was pregnant. When I told him I was pregnant the first thing he said is lets get a chicken sandwhich. Im at the point where leaving him is the only option because each day he tells me to get an abortion in person, texts, etc. What if I was never able to get back on track with school and start my career? The 45-year-old actor's statements on abortion were read at a rally outside of Mississippi's last abortion clinic, Jackson Women's Health Organization. He just doesnt want another child, but what about me & what I want? I dont think Ill ever forgive myself, I dropped out of school and my life is a mess. Everyday I think about my baby, Im still google searching what the baby would look like at this gestation age, what the baby would be doing. I feel I will never stop crying and never stop being broken hearted at my loss. Participate in the campaign: "All AGAINST ABORTION!" It was also great that you had someone to give you a choice. Struggling with the decision I made. Xx, I found out I was pregnant on this day a year ago and like you I was scared. I just keep crying. Im booked in for abortion on Thursday, Im already a single mum to two kids. Wow I needed to read this. It took me months to get back to normal, probably because of the hormones, and I got severely depressed and anxious. She was worth fighting for. An Open Letter to Those Against Abortion | by jasmine - Medium Then, my eyes glued to the test as if it were revealing to me the secrets of the universe, I stared. She told me she was flattered but nothing could stop her from the abortion. Parental Consent & Notification Laws | Teen Abortion Laws We don't need to live in a big fancy house, Personal Stories: How Bans on Abortion Later in Pregnancy Hurt People We just signed the lease on our apartment and we were planning a trip to Italy for next summer. Hi. I just remember lying on the table crying my eyes out begging for forgiveness till They put me to sleep . I just want to be happy with him but its hard when we are on different pages. He is the reason why I feel so motivated now, and although its not easy I wouldnt trade him for anything in the world. She felt because of the drugs it was best to have an abortion. Im ready,but am I really ready? I agree about age being just a number but my husband is 50 and not interested in doing this again. All the best to you <3. It would have killed me alive to have given birth to those children and given them a life they did not deserve. Maybe they never will. Did you spell check your submission? He now know about it and wants to end our marriage of 4 years. I went through every logistic financial, physical, mental to see if I could go through with it. You have a child. Abortion - " A Letter From An Unborn Baby" | PDF - Scribd And I was supposedly either unable to conceive or it would be extremely difficult. But I cant help but feel a deep sense of loss and regret over ending the pregnancy. Thanks again for this though, I wish you the best and its great to know I am not alone. Im 8-9 weeks pregnant, i have not told him since we are not together although we still engage in sex. I feel like the biggest failure in the world. By Ronald Doe. Fathers should never be bored of their children. I wish I had made the even more difficult decision and been able to hold him and tell him how much I love him. Let's Talk Abortion: An Open Letter to My First, My Only How do you know? I pull out the test and show him the two pink lines. The World Health Organization (WHO) estimates that 42 million abortions are induced worldwide each year. No baby should be murdered by its mother. My little sister just found out she is pregnant and I am happy for her but I just cant help being sad that I didnt get to know my baby and see him/her grow and I may never get that chance again ( was told it wouldnt be easy to get pregnant to begin with) that baby could very well be my first and only. The place we live doesnt have space for a baby and we are only just building our savings. Like something to be dealt with, a burden that was his cross to bear. All I could say was 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby, I'm sorry.' As a mother, you never, ever, ever forget. Cry Of An Unborn Child by Gabrielle Kruger - Family Friend Poems. He walks into the front room while I am mid-stand, so thats how I greet him. I really commend you Shawn. Despite the fact that I used contraception, I still got pregnant last week. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. In my heart i know that baby would have deserved better, but is it ok to feel THat way? I really dont! I want to experience the excitement of my first day at school Its been 3 months since my abortion. I know thats the right decision but I cant stop crying or thinking about baby . I found out I was pregnant today after being a few days late on my period Im lost!!!!! And I havent heard from him since. The connection happened from day one. I would give anything to have my baby back. One day, maybe. We want to expand our family but we werent expecting to do it so soon. I feel for you and very sorry for your loss. I wish this decision wasnt so hard. I wish I would have told him to have a nice life. On the way to the apartment he called and asked if I was hungry. I have been scouring the internet for stories because keep either seeing people who wanted to do it and doesnt regret it, or people who regret it all together. I feel for you. Mamma you knew when I was placed in your womb. So many people would love to give that little one a home. I thought I was the problem. We talk about how we could make it work, but it just doesnt make sense. Guess what? You can always come back. I tell her, I cant. Im honest enough with myself to know that if I leave, I will never will come back. And I too pray from the core of my heart that you all get back your unborn ones. A young woman writes an open letter to the child she is about to abort and posts it online.. Anything further than 6 weeks and I could not have possibly stood firm on my decision. This time is different. I tell him I dont want an abortion, but nothing about this makes sense. Remorse Is Forever By I had gone off my birth control a year prior and I didnt get my period for six months; then once I did, they were not predictable: they always came, but my cycle wasnt steady. Now Im thinking an abortion is my only option, I kicked him out last night. My heart is breaking but I cant have another child on my own. Thank you so much for sharing this. Everyone had always said about decisions like this that you need to be 100% sure either way but I wasnt sure either way at all. Before I Formed You in the Womb I Knew You I cant be a single baby mama, with two baby daddies. I didnt want to do this. He keeps trying to make me have the child and give my child full custody and I feel like he wants to rob me because I cant afford to have a child of my own. Floating in your tummy, feeling snug and warm. I wish I could turn back the hands of time. I know Im going to love him when he is here but in the time being I am just purely struggling. I am sure I am going to be the Late-term abortions explained | CNN It was at this point that I started to get really nervous, terrified actually. My biggest fear is not be Abel to give my girl a sibling I will be 39 in a couple of days so . Then I sobbed when I put the phone down. Rapid thoughts flooded my brain. I will make my decision within the next 2 weeks. I wish I had advice or something magical to say to make everything all betterI dont. Im seeking a medium to try reach her. I was asked to write this poem by a friend whose niece was distraught because she was pregnant and was addicted to drugs. Children cannot eat love and so please think about your financial situation. Im 16 and I knew there was no way I could support a child. Baby. I'll make you breakfast on Mother's Day I take his hand in mine and say, Everything thats happened the past few weeks doesnt matter anymore. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation We named you to help us grieve for you By anonymous on 19/11/2013 surgical abortion abortion 18 weeks Firstly I need to tell you that me & your daddy have decided to name you. It hurt because I was all alone in it,the thought of it break my heart into million pieces Ive prayed to God to forgive me but still I cant get over it. to NOT have to make this decision. My partner said he would support me either way but I knew deep down to him it might as well have been the end of the world. I told myself there was no way i could be pregnant. That is my "right." When we want our baby in womb then it is a baby. All the best xxxx, Hi Owami, your message speaks to me because I was completely alone too. 30 years old , Im pregnant now. I am thinking of you xx. Again, I sleep in the same room as your dad that night, and when my alarm goes off, I get ready to take the bus to work. Although your husband is not supportive now, he no doubt will grow to love your little child. My daughter was only 800g when she was born, stayed in NICU for 3 month. I found out I was pregnant October 1st. A judge can excuse you from this requirement. Theres no good option. I know this choice that I am making will be the hardest but I know in the long run, I will be saving my child from being born into a dysfunction environment I at least owe my child that. Ive had 3 surgeries for endometriosis and fibroids. I couldnt face a potential miscarriage, still birth or birth defects and my doctors had no guidance for me and what I was dealing with regarding my health. In my mind, Ive raised a child on my own, and even with all the struggles, raising her has been the most rewarding experience ever. Its nice to see other ladies have the same emotions and I know when the time is right my baby girl will come back to me (: This might be a bit forward and seem strange of me but I have been through this twice before so if you would like someone to talk to or any support you are welcome to contact me anytime x. I just had mine this afternoon. Gone by The Head and The Heart plays, and I publicly cry at the lyric Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. I was pursuing an academic career and never had the chance. Thank you for your sorry. I need to get a surgical abortion on Monday and he cant even decide if he wants to come and support me. Thank you so much for this. I aborted my second child at 10 weeks 16 years ago and have regretted it since. I think about you so often and wish so badly I could turn back time. And now Im starting to think I am one. He doesnt mean too, hes just a consummate bachelor annnnddddd.damn it. At times I couldnt walk, couldnt eat, loss 9 pounds in one week, shortness of breath and felt like I was having a heart attack. . Colorado. Abandonment threatI couldnt believe it. I made the wrong choice. I understand you completely I found out I was pregnant pretty early ( 2-3 weeks ) decided I was going to go through with the pregnancy after me & my boyfriend relationship changes drastically he started to become emotionally and mentally abuse. That is a beautiful thought and may have helped me make my decision . I am totally against abortion. Maybe you feel deep regret, maybe it was a confusing time, maybe you didn't care at all. Sometimes I wish I still had my baby. I had one almost six years ago and I still cry about it. I have never cried to hard in my life. Chapter Headings: I can hear your voice I am currently 5 months pregnant with my child. My apt is tomo And I dont want to go. That, and I literally broke up with him two days prior. 2. The way you wrote it felt so close to home for me and i just wanted to say thank-you, thank-you, thank-you. I am so heartbroken. April S., New Jersey. Massachusetts Democrat told to resign after abortion remarks leave parents irate. Im not mad at you anymore. The doctor walks in and is quite pregnant. The first line showed up dark pink as it always did, and then, suddenly, a faint second pink line emerged. I can identify , however the thought of another pregnancy scared me.. so I never wanted another child.. after this..This was 28 years later, I am in the same boat currently. So we did. My advice to you would be to remember that at the end of the day, and your life, you have to be able to live with yourself, so forget about what your partner wants and do what is right for you. The dad and I literally talked about having another baby one day but we didnt know it would happen so fast. Cant help thinking its meant to be when I got pregnant again.